Obsessive Behavior:Why Do I Write? by Shawn Boreta

Obsessive Behavior.
This is a year that is turning out much differently than expected – through many “circumstances” a mighty God has shown greatly in my life; my God! And, the question is asked, why do I write? Two years ago, it would not have been asked of me –the only writing I did was an occasional email or notes in my journal, which I could not decipher later on.

I write because God asked me to, and when I refused, He commanded me to. What started out as a simple Facebook post by a friend has turned into my life’s passion – truly an obsession, and the more I write, the more my desire is to write – and the upside to all this writing is that I have to read in order to write intelligently.

I have discovered that words are what form me. When I was a young girl, words scared me. The idea of picking up a book or putting a pen to paper was horrifying. And, talking about what I read (or was supposed to read) would turn me completely inside out.

I have discovered that His word reveals me – I remember the moment when I realized that all of His promises that I had been reading were true for me. It was not the day I was saved and it was not in a moment of complete devastation. It was a moment comprised of many moments leading to that time and place that God had predetermined for me to “get it”.

How many times will I forget that You are with me?
How many ways will I avoid Your presence, absent mindedly?
How many roads will I travel following the detours?

So many more than necessary – but enough times to remember – You are always with me!

You always direct my path perfectly!
You never fail to show me the right way!

So with You I will travel all of my days, deeply in Your presence I will step and stay.

Words allow me to have a voice when my voice cannot be heard over the noise of the world or distractions of every day life. Hearing His voice above the world is my obsession, and stepping over the threshold of distractions is my daily quest. And in pursuit of this obsession to envelope all that God has for me, He teaches me, He forgives me, He comforts me and He gives me “a me” I can live with now.

“The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. And we will be ready to punish every act of disobedience, once your obedience is complete.” 2 Corinthians 10:4-6 NIV

In discovering the words He has for me, I am changed and in these changes He, in me, is revealed greatly. His words form me… and the words that flow from me are endless. The rewards of His words for me, priceless.

God in me…

I am worth the endless love of a mighty God…”

“I am not settling for complacency, I desire to realize the fullness of a life through Christ.”

“What we do with the time we have is our choice. How we are rewarded for this time is God’s choice.”

“A positive attitude can help the moment. A hope-filled heart and knowing God’s promises can encourage a lifetime.”

“Lord, keep working on me and shining brightly where I need to see.”

“The moving parts of my life keep changing, but the operator of the machine stays the same.”

“Watching as the work of art is formed. Going through fire to secure the beauty of it all.”

“I love when things are pulled together. God’s surprises are the best.”

“We have the almighty God on our side, we must not fear man. As, they are just like us, in need of an almighty God.”

“We are not competition as brothers and sisters, only compliments to one another. Make it known that all the body parts work together perfectly.”

And, there is hope in my surrender and in His tenderness of these lessons. Today, I will end with one of my favorite sayings, “I can’t wait to see what God has next.”

© Shawn Boreta 2011

Prayer by pszczelak

by Shawn Boreta
Greetings and welcome to my life, at least tid-bits of it. My name is Shawn Delia Boreta. I am honored that you have decided to read some of my story. My life is average and ordinary, by most accounts. And, yes, I want more and every day I get a little bit better in striving. Since I was in high school, I have thought of writing a book to reflect and grow and share; so for now, articles will have to do – to look back on the humor and substance of it all, even with the pain and the tear filled memories still very fresh and alive in my mind, I laugh and smile. My journey in writing these words is both self healing and self expressive. I believe that everyone has their own voice, a voice that sometimes others need to hear or a vision that must be shared or words that just need to be put down for one’s own accomplishment. If these words are only read by three sets of eyes, then my mission is accomplished.

There are many things in my life that I cannot explain, and for the first time, it is okay. The circumstances around my birth; varying stories have troubled me my entire life; and others which will be relayed here in these pages and many that are not. And, today, I can honestly say that it does not matter. Forty-five years ago, I entered into the world; helpless, defenseless and dependent. And nothing has changed today. Everything I need has nothing to do with me. I am grateful that this realization arrived about eight years ago. This realization came through a question – “Do you believe in heaven?”

Note From Tymothy: Shawn was one of the first I met on Facebook. What a privilege it is to know her. Her writing has grown in such a short time, she is truly a blessing. She is an administrator on several wonderful pages and her ministry inspires. I am honored to have her over Guesting today and I hope, I pray that her words, given by God, take hold of you and the innermost part of you. That you will not leave this place without a purpose. A renewed vigor. A new passion. Write. Write. Write.

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About Tymothy Longoria

Tymothy Longoria has been described as a writer with a flair for the dramatic (whether this is true still remains to be seen). He is a fan of all things fantastic, metal music, black t-shirts, and aligns himself with geeks, nerds, and all manner of monsters, and is an ardent, optimistic supporter of his fellow creatives. He has written several short stories for the online macabre zine Underneath The Juniper Tree and in 2012 was awarded Debut Author of the Year by Twisted Core Press for 'Envy', his contribution to the Seven Deadly Sins Anthology. He is currently editing his full-length dark fantasy retelling, Revenants: Book One of The Stories. Fairy tales? If only. Legends will be reborn. Tymothy calls Texas home, where he lives with his wife, two children, and a cat called ThunderCat aka Kitty PawKitty. He is represented by Bree Ogden of Red Sofa Literary. View all posts by Tymothy Longoria

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